Ultimatum

OK, Internet. It's me and you now.


I'm a twenty-something post-graduate with a Masters in Computer Science. I work, I sleep, I try to spend time with people, but for the first time in my life I am tired. Very, very tired, but not physically. With all this free time outside of work I've had a lot of opportunity to think. Maybe that's my first mistake. I read, I watch, I compile and analyze a few things: national media, our US government, and the human condition (limited and anecdotal, but isn't that part of it?) . The problem with these subjects is that, currently, they are not optimistic in the slightest. Our media is run by sensationalists, our Government is a nation-wide penis waving contest, and I'm not exactly thrilled with how humans are behaving on this side of the hemisphere. And honestly, I think it's driving me mad. Hence the title up there.

I don't think I see these things any differently than others. I realize that we are a (sometimes) intelligent lot, we all have opinions and we all interalize information in our own ways. But I don't think other people realize how important our time on this blue dust-ball really is. And I want to place blame for that. I want to blame religion: it cradles psychologically with the promise of an after-life. What's our time here when we will be spending Eternity in (insert mythological plane of existence)? I want to blame the media: they spin and they misinform. 'Media' is probably too vague of a term, but any multi-million dollar corporation that broadcasts 24-hour news has their own inherent biases. But I think most of all, I want to blame People. People don't care about each other. We wave flags to support our military and we attend Church or a community center, or we visit our friends for barbecue, but we don't care about "others," those who aren't our families or friends. We have moments of clarity, and sometimes we even do things right, but we are on the whole selfish, greedy and opportunistic. And it's my fear that its going to get us killed.

But I want to change how I think. I want to be proud of my fellow man again. It's probably going to be difficult. I'm going to post articles I read or watch every day (or other day depending on how terrible said articles are) and try to find nuggets of optimism. Maybe this'll help. Maybe I'm wasting my time. Maybe I should look into Celexa.


You're welcome to tag along.